Silent Sit

Since the earthquake last March I haven’t felt safe inside the house Hold my breath and freeze At the slightest rumble Listening so close for friction My ears won’t stop ringing Since giving birth three Julys ago I haven’t felt safe inside my heart Exposed to nightmares I can’t exhale Wondering if my love Will be enough to set him free Or become another prison Since you told me I could be myself While clinging to who you want me to be I haven’t felt safe inside desire Maybe I’m confused or insatiable An angel of death disguised as a lover Sent to seduce a whole movement Down to Hades Town Ground yourself in a deeper part of you Said my horoscope last month So I’ve been trying to root into my soul To just be In a cross-legged sit Mudra ready to seal my self in But the neighbor’s hurting his kid With words that will kill mine And it’s too loud for anything to stick Oh Lorde, if only I could hear What world is made In the breathless precision of silence